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Why am I always the one at fault?
My day was going fine. My one-shots were doing extremely well. I had so muuuch fun in watching Star King ( ZOMG!!! HyunJoong was just sizzling hot there^^ and I must say that even though I hate Tiffany soo much, she is so pretty there. ^^ ). And of course, my morning happiness wouldn't be complete without a little doze of my special dolphin boy, Kim JunSu. But all of it was ruined in lunch. When my father accused me of something I hate to be accused of.
In my post yestreday evening, I said I had had enough of Hayden Kho's scandal. And here I am. In the dining table. Getting accused of downloading Hayden's video. WHAT THE HELL! I literally like to rip my head off at that time! If only I am more bolder in front of my father, he could've died right now. Here's the case: Me and my sibling had a thing for downloading stuffs. No. Not that kind of stuffs. But stuffs like dramas, games, etc. But due to excessive downloading, our computer broke several times. So our parents told us to stop downloading. We didn't stop, though. BUT! I never donwloaded from that computer AGAIN! I download stuffs from my laptop only~~ Now, my father kept on yelling at me in the dining table. Here is the exact conversation.
Father: Sino nagdodownload kahapon.
Ako: Malay ko.
Father: Wag niyo akong gawing tanga. Alam ko na nagdodowload kayo! Pinapatay niyo lang yung monitor pero yung CPU bukas!
Ako: *kumakain*
Father: Ano ba dinodownload niyo? Yung kay HAYDEN KHO no?!
Ako: *teary-eyed*
Father: Ano? Yung mga intsik mo na walang kwenta?
Ako: Itanong mo kay Ate. *hurt*
Father: Akala niyo hindi ko alam. Eh hanggang 12 nga gising pa kayo eh.
Ako: ...
That's about everything that was exchanged during lunch. He must've sensed that I'm about to cry or something. Yes. I'm a crybaby. And I'm extremely mad right now. First. Could he please get the facts right before he accuse me of something? I wasn't awake until 12, for fuck's sake! I was only awake until 11:00! 1 hour, big difference! Second, why would I download those icky videos?! I have no intention whatsoever in watching sluts having sex! Ugh. I would if that was Yunho and Jae but noooooo! I have no interest in Hayden and Katrina! Eew mehn. Lastly, does he really think I'm THAT stupid? If I would do that, I would make sure that I would turn off the fucking PC before I go to sleep. And why would I even do that? I have the fucking YouTube! Geez. I really hate this so much.
This isn't the first time he accused me so badly. Another was when he said that i have to the something. Mind you, that something was very hard for a lazy bod like me to do. Anyway, I did it. Guess what? He asked our fucking, slutty maid if I did that. She said NOOO! Goddamnit. He fucking believed it. THEN he started to lecture me about how lazy I am blah blah blah. I told him I did do it. But he wouldn't listen. Makes me wonder. Does he really treat me as a daughter? Or is he taking advantage of my kindness cause out of the three, I'm the only one who doesn't anwer back, who doesn't demand something, who burdens them the least. Hell, I even let them fucking control my life. Argh. Now he believes the slutty maid more than me. How would you feel when your own father does that to you, huh?!
AISH!!! I'm so pissed right now! ARGGHHH.
Paminsan minsan naman kasi, wag kang magconclude agad. Alamin mo muna kasi. Nakakasakit ka na eh. And you're not helping either. Masyado na akong nasaktan kay Jet. Tapos ikaw pa. Tangina mo.
Fuck.
In my post yestreday evening, I said I had had enough of Hayden Kho's scandal. And here I am. In the dining table. Getting accused of downloading Hayden's video. WHAT THE HELL! I literally like to rip my head off at that time! If only I am more bolder in front of my father, he could've died right now. Here's the case: Me and my sibling had a thing for downloading stuffs. No. Not that kind of stuffs. But stuffs like dramas, games, etc. But due to excessive downloading, our computer broke several times. So our parents told us to stop downloading. We didn't stop, though. BUT! I never donwloaded from that computer AGAIN! I download stuffs from my laptop only~~ Now, my father kept on yelling at me in the dining table. Here is the exact conversation.
Father: Sino nagdodownload kahapon.
Ako: Malay ko.
Father: Wag niyo akong gawing tanga. Alam ko na nagdodowload kayo! Pinapatay niyo lang yung monitor pero yung CPU bukas!
Ako: *kumakain*
Father: Ano ba dinodownload niyo? Yung kay HAYDEN KHO no?!
Ako: *teary-eyed*
Father: Ano? Yung mga intsik mo na walang kwenta?
Ako: Itanong mo kay Ate. *hurt*
Father: Akala niyo hindi ko alam. Eh hanggang 12 nga gising pa kayo eh.
Ako: ...
That's about everything that was exchanged during lunch. He must've sensed that I'm about to cry or something. Yes. I'm a crybaby. And I'm extremely mad right now. First. Could he please get the facts right before he accuse me of something? I wasn't awake until 12, for fuck's sake! I was only awake until 11:00! 1 hour, big difference! Second, why would I download those icky videos?! I have no intention whatsoever in watching sluts having sex! Ugh. I would if that was Yunho and Jae but noooooo! I have no interest in Hayden and Katrina! Eew mehn. Lastly, does he really think I'm THAT stupid? If I would do that, I would make sure that I would turn off the fucking PC before I go to sleep. And why would I even do that? I have the fucking YouTube! Geez. I really hate this so much.
This isn't the first time he accused me so badly. Another was when he said that i have to the something. Mind you, that something was very hard for a lazy bod like me to do. Anyway, I did it. Guess what? He asked our fucking, slutty maid if I did that. She said NOOO! Goddamnit. He fucking believed it. THEN he started to lecture me about how lazy I am blah blah blah. I told him I did do it. But he wouldn't listen. Makes me wonder. Does he really treat me as a daughter? Or is he taking advantage of my kindness cause out of the three, I'm the only one who doesn't anwer back, who doesn't demand something, who burdens them the least. Hell, I even let them fucking control my life. Argh. Now he believes the slutty maid more than me. How would you feel when your own father does that to you, huh?!
AISH!!! I'm so pissed right now! ARGGHHH.
Paminsan minsan naman kasi, wag kang magconclude agad. Alamin mo muna kasi. Nakakasakit ka na eh. And you're not helping either. Masyado na akong nasaktan kay Jet. Tapos ikaw pa. Tangina mo.
Fuck.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Why I can never get enough of DBSK and I would never like Suju...
Up to this point, I have no idea on why am I not getting hooked on Super Junior. I find them super HOOT in Sorry Sorry and I really love DongHae, KiBum and HeeChul. But I can't find a way to be attached to them like how I was attached to DBSK. This maybe the sole reason why.
I wanted Super Junior to the something new. Please don't get mad at me but this is what I notice. When I see DBSK trying new, I would go gaga over it. But then Super Junior would follow. They wouldn't completely copy it, but the concept would be the same.
Proof? Their album just now. Notice. DBSK became manlier due to their 4th album, Mirotic. Then what happens? Super Junior followed them and released their I-don't-know album with them also being manly. With the suits and all. I think I'm just getting tired and I want to see something new to them.
Don't get me wrong. I don't hate Super Junior. But I also don't like them. i just adore their dorkiness. XDDDD
Now onto DBSK. HEAVEN is a word that can only describe them. These are the main reasons why I can't get enough of them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDGJRS4Rebw&feature=related
Ohh. Junsu and your adorable cuteness.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3r6vcDOpAeM&feature=related
I'm a die hard fan of YunJae. No questions asked. XDDD (I died during the holding hand part thingie~~ gaaaah )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KMI3bw3G8RI&feature=related
I love Junsu and his English. I wanna marry dolphin boy~~ But I know Chun would get angry~~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zPJZL3Ze64&feature=rec-HM-r2
You dead? Me too. Yey uss!! How hot is it seeing them blowing into each other's ears?! I died during the YunJaeSu moment. They look so intimate.
Had fun? I had! WAHAHAHAHHA!
I wanted Super Junior to the something new. Please don't get mad at me but this is what I notice. When I see DBSK trying new, I would go gaga over it. But then Super Junior would follow. They wouldn't completely copy it, but the concept would be the same.
Proof? Their album just now. Notice. DBSK became manlier due to their 4th album, Mirotic. Then what happens? Super Junior followed them and released their I-don't-know album with them also being manly. With the suits and all. I think I'm just getting tired and I want to see something new to them.
Don't get me wrong. I don't hate Super Junior. But I also don't like them. i just adore their dorkiness. XDDDD
Now onto DBSK. HEAVEN is a word that can only describe them. These are the main reasons why I can't get enough of them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDGJRS4Rebw&feature=related
Ohh. Junsu and your adorable cuteness.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3r6vcDOpAeM&feature=related
I'm a die hard fan of YunJae. No questions asked. XDDD (I died during the holding hand part thingie~~ gaaaah )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KMI3bw3G8RI&feature=related
I love Junsu and his English. I wanna marry dolphin boy~~ But I know Chun would get angry~~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zPJZL3Ze64&feature=rec-HM-r2
You dead? Me too. Yey uss!! How hot is it seeing them blowing into each other's ears?! I died during the YunJaeSu moment. They look so intimate.
Had fun? I had! WAHAHAHAHHA!
The scandal that's making my ears hurt.
I was watching The Buzz a while ago and they were talking about the never-ending, overrated sex scandal of Dr. Hayden Kho and Katrina Halili. As a 15 year old girl, I'm getting tired of hearing this at least once a day for a whole fucking week. Now let me say my opinion. Please don't get offeneded but this is really my opinion. ^^
I have NEVER seen senate act like this in my entire 10 decades and 5 years of breathing. Why can they not act this active when more important issues were there? First of all, I really don't get why senate is taking part of this. Second, why is Katrina only the one who is the victim here? Isn't Hayden also a victim?
I'm getting tired of Katrina making the world show sympathy to her tears. She clearly enjoyed the whole thing. And then she was saying that she didn't know that she was getting taped. Only a fool would believe that. SHE WAS FACING THE FUCKING CAMERA WHEN SHE WAS DOING THE SLUT DANCE!! Anyway, why should she be considered as the only victim when she clearly enjoyed herself?
Why is this the only sex video that is ever publicized? And as what Kris said earlier ( or Boy ^^ ) , where are the other videos? Rumor has it that there are a gazillion videos out there. So where is it? Is something going on here?
FINE FINE!!! I don't want to talk about this anymore. I'm becoming fucking serious.
I have NEVER seen senate act like this in my entire 10 decades and 5 years of breathing. Why can they not act this active when more important issues were there? First of all, I really don't get why senate is taking part of this. Second, why is Katrina only the one who is the victim here? Isn't Hayden also a victim?
I'm getting tired of Katrina making the world show sympathy to her tears. She clearly enjoyed the whole thing. And then she was saying that she didn't know that she was getting taped. Only a fool would believe that. SHE WAS FACING THE FUCKING CAMERA WHEN SHE WAS DOING THE SLUT DANCE!! Anyway, why should she be considered as the only victim when she clearly enjoyed herself?
Why is this the only sex video that is ever publicized? And as what Kris said earlier ( or Boy ^^ ) , where are the other videos? Rumor has it that there are a gazillion videos out there. So where is it? Is something going on here?
FINE FINE!!! I don't want to talk about this anymore. I'm becoming fucking serious.
Weird Signs...
Today was the last day of our review and it was depressing+fun+weird. Aren't you all tired of me talking about this one guy that makes my world go fucking zigzag rather than round? Well, I'm so sorry but I think I would still be talking about him. But up to this day only.
Why is it that even though I already gave up... he still has an effect on me? Of course. Duh. I still love him. Giving up is not that easy, after all. Right?
Well anyway, my day today was fairly normal. I got 73% on my ACET Mock Exam and 75% on my UPCAT Mock Exam. Pretty fair if I want to pass Ateneo and UP. Now I know you're not used to me babbling about my oh so wonderful future and other serious stuffs. So I'll just talk about things I usually talk about.
I was almost late due to the freakin rain. I had surpassed sooo many weird circumstances but I would just tell them to you if we meet personally. So call me, okay? ^^ Well anyway, when I arrived at our lovely (if the fucking sluts weren't there. ^^) room, everyone was looking at me. And it was so irritating to have everyone's attention. I could bear with that... if I look fine. But when I entered my room today, I looked like a bunch of gorillas tried to attack me and get my precious banana. Nuff said, I could pretty much tell that he was looking straight at me. To make things worse, the fucking door wouldn't close no matter how hard I try to close it. ( Oh please Kostka. Please fix your doors. ) Result? I stood there, standing like a fool for less than a minute, trying to close a door. How silly does that look like? I look like some kid with a mental disorder that has something to do with repeating things over and over again. Okay. That happened aaaand let's skip to 15 minute break.
What happened? A ritual of breaking my heart to pieces. How? These are the steps. First, get Jet. Next, make him smile. Then, make him sit at the back of the fucking slut while smiling. Then, make him talk to them. Finally, make them laugh hysterically as if trying to mock my sadness. Yes. That's what happened during our break. Well, I couldn't handle the situation cause it's too much for a person whose giving up to handle so we went outside. My friend went to the comfort room and she was happy. ^^ ( At least someone is happy. )
After the break, we did more exams. And yeah. There was a time when he was standing in front me, waiting for the teacher to give him something. I dunno if I should consider it a sign or what, but he stayed there for like minutes while the others just stood there for like 5 seconds. Well anyway, dismissal came and it was time to say goodbye. Like I had to. As soon as I saw the sluts embracing each other, I started heading for the door. But one scene made me rooted on the floor.
A girl was trying to hug him. Bullshit. I don't know what happened. But the hug didn't happen. Much to my relief.
Overall, today was a day full of heartbreaks. But you know what? I think I'm reaaaally numb. I know I'm in pain. But I just can't feel it. Crazy? You'll know it when you fall in love.
As I said, no matter what happened, nothing will change. And nothing did. I'll continue forgetting him. Even though I'm text mates with him now, I know it wouldn't last that long. It really is best to forget him.
I hate being in love, really. But why does it give me so much joy?
Why does the most bitter thing have to be the sweetest thing too? Is fate playing on us?
Why is it that even though I already gave up... he still has an effect on me? Of course. Duh. I still love him. Giving up is not that easy, after all. Right?
Well anyway, my day today was fairly normal. I got 73% on my ACET Mock Exam and 75% on my UPCAT Mock Exam. Pretty fair if I want to pass Ateneo and UP. Now I know you're not used to me babbling about my oh so wonderful future and other serious stuffs. So I'll just talk about things I usually talk about.
I was almost late due to the freakin rain. I had surpassed sooo many weird circumstances but I would just tell them to you if we meet personally. So call me, okay? ^^ Well anyway, when I arrived at our lovely (if the fucking sluts weren't there. ^^) room, everyone was looking at me. And it was so irritating to have everyone's attention. I could bear with that... if I look fine. But when I entered my room today, I looked like a bunch of gorillas tried to attack me and get my precious banana. Nuff said, I could pretty much tell that he was looking straight at me. To make things worse, the fucking door wouldn't close no matter how hard I try to close it. ( Oh please Kostka. Please fix your doors. ) Result? I stood there, standing like a fool for less than a minute, trying to close a door. How silly does that look like? I look like some kid with a mental disorder that has something to do with repeating things over and over again. Okay. That happened aaaand let's skip to 15 minute break.
What happened? A ritual of breaking my heart to pieces. How? These are the steps. First, get Jet. Next, make him smile. Then, make him sit at the back of the fucking slut while smiling. Then, make him talk to them. Finally, make them laugh hysterically as if trying to mock my sadness. Yes. That's what happened during our break. Well, I couldn't handle the situation cause it's too much for a person whose giving up to handle so we went outside. My friend went to the comfort room and she was happy. ^^ ( At least someone is happy. )
After the break, we did more exams. And yeah. There was a time when he was standing in front me, waiting for the teacher to give him something. I dunno if I should consider it a sign or what, but he stayed there for like minutes while the others just stood there for like 5 seconds. Well anyway, dismissal came and it was time to say goodbye. Like I had to. As soon as I saw the sluts embracing each other, I started heading for the door. But one scene made me rooted on the floor.
A girl was trying to hug him. Bullshit. I don't know what happened. But the hug didn't happen. Much to my relief.
Overall, today was a day full of heartbreaks. But you know what? I think I'm reaaaally numb. I know I'm in pain. But I just can't feel it. Crazy? You'll know it when you fall in love.
As I said, no matter what happened, nothing will change. And nothing did. I'll continue forgetting him. Even though I'm text mates with him now, I know it wouldn't last that long. It really is best to forget him.
I hate being in love, really. But why does it give me so much joy?
Why does the most bitter thing have to be the sweetest thing too? Is fate playing on us?
Saturday, May 30, 2009
1 day to go. And I'm hopeless.
" It's over... "
All the time, that was the only thing that ran through my mind. I guess, it really is over. From the looks of everything I just saw a while ago, I have no chance. I'm hopeless.
So yesterday, on my post, I said I would tell you what happened. It really breaks me to tell you all of this. But it is my choice to tell it to you since I really need to pour my emotions somewhere where he can't see.
So yesterday, on my post, I said I would tell you what happened. It really breaks me to tell you all of this. But it is my choice to tell it to you since I really need to pour my emotions somewhere where he can't see.
So here is my story. I said yesterday that something would definitely happen today. And something did happen. A lot of things did happen. I also said that I would stalk them, just to get an idea on what is going on. I did. And I wished that I just didn't. At around 12:30 in the afternoon, me and my friend went to Kostka when we finished buying this large float and fries from McDonalds. On our way to our room, God gave me this sign again. I met him. With his friends. Now let me tell you. Meeting them that early is a very rare happening. Because most of the time, they arrive 3-5 minutes late. When I saw him, my knees almost bucked, but I knew I couldn't give in just yet. Not with him in front of my face. So I continued walking and when we're out of sight, I acted like how a fan girl should act when her idol shook her hand. Anyway, let's jump to the unimportant parts. The most important is the dismissal.
When dismissal came, everybody stood up. EXCEPT him and his friends, and the girls that I hate to the point that I hate them more that peas+cockroach+straight fics. Urrgh. Just means that I hate them to the core. Well, they won't get away from my sight like that. So we did crazy stuffs just to know what is happening to them. ( I would like to apologize to Joyce for molesting your jacket. It's the only way possible. ^^ ) In the end, we gave up cause they were taking too long. We went inside McDo cause Krista's precious one is there. When we went outside again ( cause we realize that we don't have enough money to even buy fries. ^^ ) I saw them. At first, the scene of him, standing there and smiling, was oh-so dear to me. But when I saw the whole picture, I wish I just went blind.
There with him are the nasty girls. Giggling to each other like a bunch of sluts. It drives me nuts seeing them acting like that. Well anyway, that didn't drive me to the edge yet. I was still fine until that point. But something happened. And this something is not a simple act anymore. And I would happily let all my anger out. :))))
He fucking let those sluts enter his car. Ugggh. You don't know how horrible the scene was for me. I nearly cried out when I saw that, but I can't do that till I'm home. I want to fucking pull those fucking fugly blouses out of that car so it would not be stained by their slutiness. Yes. I know I'm being rude here. But that's just how life goes. Yes. It did break my heart when I saw those girls entering. But that was not the cherry on top.
He was fucking smiling. I have never wished in my life for him to stop smiling than that time. Never. I didn't continue following them cause I know that I would be killing myself if I did. I don't know what will happen tomorrow. I want my last day with him to be fun. But all of it changed with just one single day. And I hate it so much. But I don't care right now. If he wants to do it this way, then fine. At least he'll be happy for long. While I just suffer for one more day. Or will my love for him prevail longer? I really don't know at this point. I'm so clueless and puzzled. I want him, yet, I want to let him go. I'm a bastard for even having high hopes for him. I knew it was impossible to begin with, and my selfish self just won't listen.
I'm sorry, my heart, for making you suffer like this. I'm sorry, my mind, for forcing you to paint pictures of him everytime. I'm sorry, Jet, for bothering you with such feelings. Mianhe.
I guess this could be the day wherein I would totally give up. I want to shed tears, but I can't. Maybe I'm numb, or whatever. What happens tomorrow, will happen. I don't know if I'll change my decision but it is unlikely for that to happen now.
I was unable to accomplish my goal. Because I wanted more than your back. I wanted you.
I realized that I have fallen in love with you from the start. And I'm just messing up with myself, denying these fucking feelings. It'll be hard to forget you when my mind seems to be used to painting your pictures everytime. Hell, I think it even forgot how to draw S and D's pictures whom I have adored for 2 years and counting. You, you just gave me 1 month and less and this is what happens. But I'll try.
This is the end, I guess. I loved you. Please remember that.
JET IS LAHAAAVE now signing off.
When dismissal came, everybody stood up. EXCEPT him and his friends, and the girls that I hate to the point that I hate them more that peas+cockroach+straight fics. Urrgh. Just means that I hate them to the core. Well, they won't get away from my sight like that. So we did crazy stuffs just to know what is happening to them. ( I would like to apologize to Joyce for molesting your jacket. It's the only way possible. ^^ ) In the end, we gave up cause they were taking too long. We went inside McDo cause Krista's precious one is there. When we went outside again ( cause we realize that we don't have enough money to even buy fries. ^^ ) I saw them. At first, the scene of him, standing there and smiling, was oh-so dear to me. But when I saw the whole picture, I wish I just went blind.
There with him are the nasty girls. Giggling to each other like a bunch of sluts. It drives me nuts seeing them acting like that. Well anyway, that didn't drive me to the edge yet. I was still fine until that point. But something happened. And this something is not a simple act anymore. And I would happily let all my anger out. :))))
He fucking let those sluts enter his car. Ugggh. You don't know how horrible the scene was for me. I nearly cried out when I saw that, but I can't do that till I'm home. I want to fucking pull those fucking fugly blouses out of that car so it would not be stained by their slutiness. Yes. I know I'm being rude here. But that's just how life goes. Yes. It did break my heart when I saw those girls entering. But that was not the cherry on top.
He was fucking smiling. I have never wished in my life for him to stop smiling than that time. Never. I didn't continue following them cause I know that I would be killing myself if I did. I don't know what will happen tomorrow. I want my last day with him to be fun. But all of it changed with just one single day. And I hate it so much. But I don't care right now. If he wants to do it this way, then fine. At least he'll be happy for long. While I just suffer for one more day. Or will my love for him prevail longer? I really don't know at this point. I'm so clueless and puzzled. I want him, yet, I want to let him go. I'm a bastard for even having high hopes for him. I knew it was impossible to begin with, and my selfish self just won't listen.
I'm sorry, my heart, for making you suffer like this. I'm sorry, my mind, for forcing you to paint pictures of him everytime. I'm sorry, Jet, for bothering you with such feelings. Mianhe.
I guess this could be the day wherein I would totally give up. I want to shed tears, but I can't. Maybe I'm numb, or whatever. What happens tomorrow, will happen. I don't know if I'll change my decision but it is unlikely for that to happen now.
I was unable to accomplish my goal. Because I wanted more than your back. I wanted you.
I realized that I have fallen in love with you from the start. And I'm just messing up with myself, denying these fucking feelings. It'll be hard to forget you when my mind seems to be used to painting your pictures everytime. Hell, I think it even forgot how to draw S and D's pictures whom I have adored for 2 years and counting. You, you just gave me 1 month and less and this is what happens. But I'll try.
This is the end, I guess. I loved you. Please remember that.
JET IS LAHAAAVE now signing off.
Friday, May 29, 2009
2 days left and everything is getting worse.
" I'll get him... no matter what it takes. "
THAT! That was what was on my mind when I first saw him smile. When was that? When had this introduction thingie on one of our subjects. Think it was Day 1 of Bio. Well, that really wasn't important. What was important was his smile. I fell in love with it the second I saw it. You know why?
" Yoochun... "
" Yoochun... "
Yup. He smiles JUST LIKE Yoochun. He looks like him too. Since that fated day, my heart was pulled closer to him. Everyday wouldn't be complete without seeing him. That's why I curse Sunday cause we don't have classes. As day passed, me and my oh-so dearest friend, Krista, sensed something weird that could make my senstive heart leap.
He seems to be taking interest on us... particularly me.
He seems to be taking interest on us... particularly me.
Since the day that I almost collided with him in the stairs ( due to my vain attempt in preventing him and me meeting at one point. I ran the fastest speed my legs could manage, but still, he was faster than me so we almost collided. Get the picture? ) everything has been so weird. We caught him looking at us. When dismissal is there, we would always be behind his pack. ( just looking at his back makes me happy. ^^ ) And he would gradually slow down and turn his back, looking at us without, apparantely, us noticing. We did though. We have eyes like a hunter's when it comes to... dudes. Days have passed like that and my heart was about to burst due to happiness. But one day... well... actually last Wednesday...
My friend told me something.
When she was looking at him, he rolled his eyes. In a mean way. Effect on me? Disastrous. When going downstairs, they were, as always, ahead of us. Weird thing is I kept on shouting out my anger. Shouting is perfect for releasing anger, let me tell you that. Well anyway, that happened and he kept on looking at us. At that time, I didn't want anything in the whole world rather than him coming to me and telling me that everything's okay. Tough luck. That would never happen.
That day passed bay and I almost cried. Really. Out of anger and pain with just one single act.
The next day wasn't any better. Yesterday, Thursday, was hell. A friend again told me that some girl was trying to communicate with him. And he talked back. Again, what a simple act, but it completely ruined my day. Completely. To make matters worse? I was tremendously sick at that day. I really considered not attending review class for the next day ( apparentely today).
Well. That didn't happen and I still attended review classes today. Today can be called " hell day part 2". Yuup. Well, I attended just because something came into my mind.
My goal here is just to love you from afar. I have no idea why I wanted you to love me too when you have no idea about my feelings. Seeing you sometimes looking at my way makes me the happiest girl alive. Please. Just continue standing there and not turn your back on me. Just that. Please.
My friend told me something.
When she was looking at him, he rolled his eyes. In a mean way. Effect on me? Disastrous. When going downstairs, they were, as always, ahead of us. Weird thing is I kept on shouting out my anger. Shouting is perfect for releasing anger, let me tell you that. Well anyway, that happened and he kept on looking at us. At that time, I didn't want anything in the whole world rather than him coming to me and telling me that everything's okay. Tough luck. That would never happen.
That day passed bay and I almost cried. Really. Out of anger and pain with just one single act.
The next day wasn't any better. Yesterday, Thursday, was hell. A friend again told me that some girl was trying to communicate with him. And he talked back. Again, what a simple act, but it completely ruined my day. Completely. To make matters worse? I was tremendously sick at that day. I really considered not attending review class for the next day ( apparentely today).
Well. That didn't happen and I still attended review classes today. Today can be called " hell day part 2". Yuup. Well, I attended just because something came into my mind.
My goal here is just to love you from afar. I have no idea why I wanted you to love me too when you have no idea about my feelings. Seeing you sometimes looking at my way makes me the happiest girl alive. Please. Just continue standing there and not turn your back on me. Just that. Please.
Yeah. I would love him from a far. I was confident on that. But something pushed me on the edge. I would tell you the details tomorrow cause I'm planning to stalk them ( yeah. that's how much i love him ) and see what would happen.
Initially, from what we heard, girls that I hate were asking them on going out. He answered yes. My heart broke. And I really don't know now.
As of now. That's all. Have a nice night. Or whatever. :D
Initially, from what we heard, girls that I hate were asking them on going out. He answered yes. My heart broke. And I really don't know now.
As of now. That's all. Have a nice night. Or whatever. :D
Thursday, May 28, 2009